i'm supposed to be working on my econs essay, but here i am, blogging(: today's a great day for me cos i feel like i'm who i used to be again. &definitely, i hope this lasts and even further change for the better! lots &lots of people are momo-ing. as an ambassador of 'SPREAD THE JOY!', i shall promote gayness~ on my way to gaining back my smiles, my so called dino laughters and my confidence.

its the stage that i've finally felt the sense of achievement. two weeks, and now i'm feeling gay at last! my observerance this few days are paid off 'cos i managed to learn and let myself strive for the smile i want back on my face.

"happiness is something that people cant give you. its something that only you can give yourself."

&also, friendship is something not to be forced, not to be controlled, not to be demanded, not to be planned, not to be jealous of, but it's something that should comes right from the heart, the very true side of you, not an act.

p/s: i will still continue my journey of life.

"the feeling of losing things all of a sudden, the sense of security that you are unable to find, life's a mess."

when the entire world tells me not to be upset, not to worry, my heart just tend to sink even deeper down into the seas. I know very clearly that no one will be able to rescue me from all these. And, only me, myself can revive the once motivated, cheerful pearlyn.

"in this bustling city, are there presence of true love? or are people just in search of their needs and wants."

the tendency to let my moodswings overtake me, to let my oversensitivity get in my way. i need to do a self-revival.