loserism! i feel like blogging but here i am searching for words. i feel good today, to put things in simple terms. but still a lil' distant from the happiness as compared to last time. life used to be carefree. but nvmind, today is a great start for me i suppose!(: promos coming and i shall drive myself to mug real hard. hahas! lets hope i get it through to 203! and i promise i will.
i looked into the mirror, and i saw the faded radiance.

i WAS feeling down especially during chemistry lecture just down. but now, the song yi zhi dou zai, the conversations with joseph and yvonne made me feel light hearted!(: my world shall not just revolve around one person. 'cos i will tend to look too much into your flaws and hurt my heart in the end. OHYAH. that song yi zhi dou zai has become my mood lightener and painkiller!:D:D:D

mayb its 'cos i always make assumptions regarding you, always have hidden hopes for you which results in my heartaches. perhaps i am the one who bring those tears and frowns upon myself. i will learn to see things differently, esp after everytime i feel upset 'cos of you. maybe someday things that seems disheartening to me now, will turn out to be something positive in the future. this is 'cos things are always hard to predict. i won't want that much from you, and i will try my best to treat you only as a normal friend, i will try. and i believe that will probably lighten the burden in our hearts.

ohmygod. ytd we celebrated boonhow's birthday!(: its a one day belated celebration at Swensens! together with joseph, jeremy, gordon and eric, we had the special cake which has three flavours within it, sang boon a birthdaysong. he's so paiseh and tried to act as if it was'nt his birthday. funny mob. hahahs! settled down at bk afterwards with jo and jere. &i completed my waves tutorial~ woohoos. the three of us bought a tom&jerry pencilcase together(: but i find it small, considering if i should exchange it for some pens.

today was kinda loser, keep raining consistently. hmm. eat alot &slept alot today. didnt have the drive to revise any work. its probably the so called 'loserism'. theres cip tml! but, this girl blabbering here ain't looking forward to that. however, my palmdoorman is going to text me after every house visit tml! yay~ so theres still some life perhaps. ohyahh. ive checked out my group for the cip. i don't know them at all! kinda kuku' &im talking to a crazyperson! hahahas. he's mad. &im bored. hmm. last night was talking to brother and we got a nice dream which yet to come true: daily supply of darkchocolates and two per day! 'cos if we buy alot at once, we will finish it up in that day~