yipee. i'm duper uber cashstrapped this few days! frowns* but mummy jus gave me some money! i tink its a lil too much, feeling guilty so i returned a portion back. im nice~ hehe. so im going to service my sonyericsson phone with june later at wisma! &go shopping. wheeee. we're NOT going to eat junkfood, must run far off taka basement!=O i want to cut down fats before i buy my cny clothes! its a resolution okay?! blahh. im working on it, jogging at least once or twice a week. BUT, HOPE TO GO JOG EVERYDAY! its just a plan! whether its carried out anot is heavily dependent on me and god's will. LOLOL.

SHOPPING LIST
1. a pair of long pants
2. a pair of nice shorts
3. a wonderful sports tote bag
4. a pair of new billabong slipps
5. a couple of duper cute tees
6. a pair of new sports shoes
7. a handful of coloured socks
8. a sweet necklace
9. a pair of new spectacles
10.NEGATIVE QUANTITY OF FATS!! rahhh*

was watching the repeated 'Maid To Order' show this noon and hang called! my house phone somemore. its 'cos i didnt pick up my handfone. LOL. meeting him, hongray and jeremy to catch a movie~ duper happy 'cos im practically rotting this friday away so far. choosing between four christmases and beverly hills chihuahua. TOUGH DECISION! but clever me asked hang to choose either X or Y. he chose Y, representing the chihuahua one. hahahs! it was a rather lame show. 90 minutes felt as if it was 900 minutes in the theatre. LOL. its not THAT boring, but not THAT interesting too. a so-so movie. i tink the director could have made it more touching near the end or something. got the content, lacking the substance to bring the feel out i suppose! now, im wondering if asking to choose between letters is still a wise thing to do. DUMB ME.

HEY! its been such a long time since my last post! hmm. had a perfect fun yummie sunday! it was yvonne's birthday. june yvonne and i went down to marinasquare's kbox :D its duper fun. sang a mixture of new &oldie songs! we had klunch and i tink the melonpudding sucks. gt chemicalflavour. yucks! then for mine, the cabbage rolled thingy, the sauce gt a chao dar + cigarette smell. however, the fish tasted well!(: theres a shop there, prize stage or sth like that. so many catch-toy-machines! and alot of people came out with toys in their arms. we tried once each to catch a duper cute and maomao de toy, but failed!=/ we gt to citylink and bought an icecream each! ITS DUPER DELICIOUS. the shop is right near the end, MARVELOUS CREAM. its simply yummy. i had mixed berry cream cheesecake, yvonne had strawberry shortcake and june had classic chocolate rocky road! we top it up on a waffle bowl each!:D:D thou it tasted very nice, it costs $5.90! and its only junior size, 80ml. LOL. we settled down at the random seats at citylinkmall with people walking past us! kinda paiseh. hahas! then came a pair of japanese couple, asking us how to get to the Singapore Flyer~ random uh. we still thought they wannted to ask us where to get the icecream in our hands =.= luckily yvonne knows the way. we leaded them all the way back to the station then walked to the bus-stop opp the adelphi centre. waited for ard half an hour then the bus came! we boarded the bus with them to the flyer cos we didnt noe where to go either. we were still merrily hoping tat they will treat us to a ride for taking them there. BUT ITS JUST A MERE HOPE. poof! shared a larger mashedpotato with yvonne @Popeye's. i quite like the herb sauce but i dislike all those small bits of garlic! yvonne is totally in love with that chunk of potatoes. LOL! we trailed into the Yakult discovery cave or sth like that in name. took quite a few fotos!:D then went to the make-a-bear shop. I FEEL LIKE MAKING ONE!XP mayb i shall use my angbao money next year to buy one and deco it with those duper ex but nice clothes!(: the bus came and we boarded it back to cityhall mrt station. kinda tired and we took the marinabay train home.
p/s: &THE TASTE OF THOSE BERRIES AND CREAMYCHEESE FLAVOURED ICECREAM IS STILL LINGERING BETWEEN MY TASTEBUDS!

drawing, cutting, outlining.. doing arrows for my pw pyramid with my musicplayer on. today i've been reminiscing over the past for almost the entire day. its not emo-ing for sure. but those thoughts did made me felt weird and out-of-order. most say that the geminis are the ones who forget bout the past and move on the fastest. but being a gemini, i strongly beg to differ. or at least, i'm not that kind. probably my cells prefer the past rather than the present. tendency to wander back to times which will never be back, whenever i'm bored, i'm alone. its comes and go without any prior notice. no control over it. i'm always thinking;whenever i reminisce 'bout someone or somethings, will that someone have forgotten all the moments shared? hmm. i know folly is just part of me(:

today is superb! played ragnarok til around 2pm. had my bath and went off to meet june, joseph, pongpong, eileen and yvonne! its a mini-get-together!(: settled down at sakae for tea-time buffet. and i didnt eat that much today! unlike my usual self. tsktsk. &i was telling joseph that from september til now, ive eaten FOUR buffets. ohman, its just a freaking fattening up programme i suppose =/ laughed alot til all our stomachs were filled with air~ and that made us felt so full can?! WE CONQUERED OVER 75 PLATES!:D after that, yvonne and eileen left us while we moved on to june's house, to attend to the itch of our hands. daidi was the kick-off. the first round was a test-luck round. pongpong won but no $! LOL. 'cos its only testing! then june won four rounds in a row! then i won once and joseph won twice banluck! GOD. and some random winnings and loses here &there. pongpong was the ultimate loser! hahahs. homed at ard seven plus, eight. 'cos had to do my pyramid! while i was tv-ing jus now, i took my sweetest time doing it(: &the buffetbuffet show on channel eight featured the shop chilli padi! ytd night i was still asking yvonne &june if they want to go there. so qiao~

p/s: MY card reader and cable spoilt! cant upload photos ):

JEREMYSOH, YOU'RE A BIG FAT SORE LOSER. ask me play runescape with you then keep scolding ppl noob and so on. IF YOU'RE SO PRO, YOU WONT END UP DYING OVER 20TIMES IN RAGNAROK YTD! WAHAHAHA.

24.10.2008

played squash from twelve plus til three!(: went home to take a bath &meet eric and brotherhang at yishun mrt, 5pm. my train arrived on the dot! and i was waiting at the middle of the platform. no one came and eric was late as usual. then hang said he was at the end of the platform! LOL. boarded the train and off we went to junctioneight. brother was in whites from head to toe! hahas. we walked around junctioneight cos we're waiting for weilun to come from council room! only after abt an hour ltr then we settled down in pizzahut &enjoyed our dinner!:D ordered two regular pizzas and three hearty dinner sets in total. brother did a paperflower which gt displaced into the icewater by me. LOL~ weilun &brother said that the dessert look like a bun! but its a scoop icecream. tsktsk. &til today then i realised that weilun can eat until his stomach pops out as if he's 5months pregnant~ surprising uh?(: bought pyramids' material at popular and headed to weilun's hse. bits of styrofoam flyed all over! eric, bro and me wrapped masking tape around our palm and went piak-ing all over the floor! its so fun:D

25.10.2008

together with eric &aileen, we went to the mini stage at montrealgreen to practice our speech!(: wearing white pants is a wrong choice if you want to settle at any place, dirty.

26.10.2008

went to amk with the intention to look for sportshoes. but ew, none to my liking. alittle disappointed. bought a chocolatewaffle at prima deli and its so nt crispy and so soft. i dont like it. =/

27.10.2008

NOW, i jus realised that tml's the deadline for i&r.

my day started off this way: waking up &seeing a text received from fanny, my secondaryschool friend. was kinda shocked cos we didnt really kept in contact! the time of the text received was 00:07! and it was those chain ghost message. feeling bored, i kick off my day by sending it to 15people as stated. one of the fews were toby, brother, eric, hongray, jitao, lea and justin. that fattylam said nt to bring me the red dates drink 'cos i sent him that~ kuku! lea commented that i was the first to text her for the day!(: justin replied this to me: dont be an idiot. ahhhh~ wahlao, jus trying to make your morning a special one! tsktsk. i know you're scared right. hehe. hongray and toby responded the same way luh! saying that im the ghost, and shld be a pig to be exact. LOLOLOL.

mr nair commented on everyone's speech that was presented ytd during lesson time this morning. he said i was slightly swaying! ohman. i didnt even realise! hahas. and he said i was rather reading than presenting. aww~ i shall buckup. ohyah, i need to do something bout my pyramid, need to make it turn, animate it in other words. any volunteers to help?:D rewind abit. slightly before nair start the lesson, he played a game with us! one representative from each group. i was the one from my group. &i duper pei fu maha! she's duper great! with braces on somemore, superb! i was a slow turdy but won the game. hahas. jeremy made a joke out of himself luh! he said: 16(forgot the exact no.) smart fellows and they smelt fart! the actual thing was: 16 smart fellows and they FELT SMART! hahahas. the no.s actual kept changing according to nair. its quite fun actually. and my group's Q&A was quite welldone! hahas. lea brought cards to school today and we played for a handful of rounds. not very guo yin. its like sian sian like that. blahh. &i felt kinda emo after school. this feeling aint nice leis! but im thankful that we're playing squash again tml!(: frisbee too!

so where's my portion?

woah! school ended at 1210 yesterday!:D had lunch at the canteen as it was raining. math lecture bores me out totally. but managed to learn how to use the stats function in the gc~ hmm. intention to went out of school to eat ramen crashed due to the downpour. and finally, WE PLAYED SQUASH AFTER SO MANY WEEKS OF PAUSE DUE TO PROMOS! i was really anticipating so much to play squash. &i hope training resumes soon! when i first tried to play ytd, i totally lost the skill to even surf. i was utterly disappointed! but frett not, hongray was my coach for the day! &i could feel my improvement. OVER THE MOON!(: thanks big sun bear! played with jeremy, jingyang, nareyn, lea, joseph too. its duper fun til ard 4 thirty then we gt home. &i sweated like an extreme pig for the very first time:D

p/s: im chatting with my friends on msn right now, and not to mention, shaunlim(boyboy)!(:

16102008

简单离我的距离一天比一天来得遥远。
虽称简单，但却是最难寻找的。

我只想暂时躲在我自己的世界里。
或许，我需要的是个精神上的寄托吧。

schooling today was rather dry, had projectwork for three long hours. but im glad today's physics lecture was kinda funny and time seems to pass duper fast.

15102008

had go-karting and hiphop dance! hahas. its was my very FIRST TIME to play with karts! kinda cool. the pedal was quite loose, and im wondering if im even stepping on it~ LOL. after school, stayed in councilroom with weilun and jitao before toby went to school to fetch me. its the FIRST TIME that he came to fetch me too! lots of times when we arranged to meet, but end up couldnt make it. hahas. finally a successful one! lunched at pastamania, had my clams&mussels pasta!(: then went to innova to fetch joey and shijia. innova looks far too nice as compared to yishun can?! ahhh. sent me home afterthat. thanks toby for the day!:D

yay! tell me that this skin looks cute. tell me you think likewise! hahahas. look at those cakes on top. you can click replay and they will move again :D ultimate gayness. ohyah. yesterday's physics paper was extreme toughness. i cant even bomb like usual. dead for sure i supposed. hmm. &sorry to joseph! i promised you to accompany you to put on your braces but in the end, i couldnt make it. i was down with some dumbfever. but im glad that im alright now. ALIVE AND KICKING!(: justin says: dont slacken. thats a difficult one.

HELLYEAH! exams will be gone soon. yay! only left with chemistry and physics paper. &fun will be on its way to pay me a visit:D duper happy when i thought of the activities and the slackingtime after exams~ however, i gt chemistry paper tml. i shall mug. for the sake of my better future. cos this girl dont want to retain(:
i wish what you told me was all a lie.

YOU! YES, YOU! thanks to you that i managed to learn so much things.
THE DESPITES: letting me lose faith in this friendship, letting me understand the true meaning of disappointment, challenging me psychologically & so many other loserism acts of yours.
THE LEARNING ESSENCE: let you have a taste of how i feel. you may give someone 99% of your effort, but prepare to get an inverse of that in return.

im going to slowly SWEEP you out of my life. im NOT going to tell you how i feel anymore. cos even if i do, even after those so-called discussions, nothing changes, only make me feel worse. so im NOT going to waste my time typing another email which is 840words long. cos its not being appreciated. DONT overestimate my limits for you. cos they're running out. without persistency, you can get NOWHERE. im not interested if you care anymore and you dont come and blame me for being so callous. YOU ARE THE ONE who drove me from sad to angry, stage two to three.

loserism! i feel like blogging but here i am searching for words. i feel good today, to put things in simple terms. but still a lil' distant from the happiness as compared to last time. life used to be carefree. but nvmind, today is a great start for me i suppose!(: promos coming and i shall drive myself to mug real hard. hahas! lets hope i get it through to 203! and i promise i will.
i looked into the mirror, and i saw the faded radiance.

i WAS feeling down especially during chemistry lecture just down. but now, the song yi zhi dou zai, the conversations with joseph and yvonne made me feel light hearted!(: my world shall not just revolve around one person. 'cos i will tend to look too much into your flaws and hurt my heart in the end. OHYAH. that song yi zhi dou zai has become my mood lightener and painkiller!:D:D:D

mayb its 'cos i always make assumptions regarding you, always have hidden hopes for you which results in my heartaches. perhaps i am the one who bring those tears and frowns upon myself. i will learn to see things differently, esp after everytime i feel upset 'cos of you. maybe someday things that seems disheartening to me now, will turn out to be something positive in the future. this is 'cos things are always hard to predict. i won't want that much from you, and i will try my best to treat you only as a normal friend, i will try. and i believe that will probably lighten the burden in our hearts.

ohmygod. ytd we celebrated boonhow's birthday!(: its a one day belated celebration at Swensens! together with joseph, jeremy, gordon and eric, we had the special cake which has three flavours within it, sang boon a birthdaysong. he's so paiseh and tried to act as if it was'nt his birthday. funny mob. hahahs! settled down at bk afterwards with jo and jere. &i completed my waves tutorial~ woohoos. the three of us bought a tom&jerry pencilcase together(: but i find it small, considering if i should exchange it for some pens.

today was kinda loser, keep raining consistently. hmm. eat alot &slept alot today. didnt have the drive to revise any work. its probably the so called 'loserism'. theres cip tml! but, this girl blabbering here ain't looking forward to that. however, my palmdoorman is going to text me after every house visit tml! yay~ so theres still some life perhaps. ohyahh. ive checked out my group for the cip. i don't know them at all! kinda kuku' &im talking to a crazyperson! hahahas. he's mad. &im bored. hmm. last night was talking to brother and we got a nice dream which yet to come true: daily supply of darkchocolates and two per day! 'cos if we buy alot at once, we will finish it up in that day~

i'm supposed to be working on my econs essay, but here i am, blogging(: today's a great day for me cos i feel like i'm who i used to be again. &definitely, i hope this lasts and even further change for the better! lots &lots of people are momo-ing. as an ambassador of 'SPREAD THE JOY!', i shall promote gayness~ on my way to gaining back my smiles, my so called dino laughters and my confidence.

its the stage that i've finally felt the sense of achievement. two weeks, and now i'm feeling gay at last! my observerance this few days are paid off 'cos i managed to learn and let myself strive for the smile i want back on my face.

"happiness is something that people cant give you. its something that only you can give yourself."

&also, friendship is something not to be forced, not to be controlled, not to be demanded, not to be planned, not to be jealous of, but it's something that should comes right from the heart, the very true side of you, not an act.

p/s: i will still continue my journey of life.

"the feeling of losing things all of a sudden, the sense of security that you are unable to find, life's a mess."

when the entire world tells me not to be upset, not to worry, my heart just tend to sink even deeper down into the seas. I know very clearly that no one will be able to rescue me from all these. And, only me, myself can revive the once motivated, cheerful pearlyn.

"in this bustling city, are there presence of true love? or are people just in search of their needs and wants."

the tendency to let my moodswings overtake me, to let my oversensitivity get in my way. i need to do a self-revival.